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Monday, March 10th, 2008
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6:57 pm - I should've known better....
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So when you spent my insurance money from my car wreck I should've known then to never trust you again. But you are my own mother and after finally getting over that... well not completely but coming to terms with it, I trusted you again. I know that this seems like I'm being selfish or needy or to dependent on you but I would always ask you if there was money there when you offered. You told me it was okay and constantly reassured me it was. So I'm sorry if I'm so angry when all of a sudden you give me what feels like a five days notice to tell my roommate that I have to move out.
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Okay so about two years ago, you spent the insurance money from my car wreck on a damn horse. Didn't let me know about it, and then whenever I get there to pick the car up, I'm calling you to ask you for that money. You don't answer but I assume (first mistake) that you had the money so I charge it on my credit card thinking that I'll get the check to pay it right away. WRONG!!!! It's less than thirty minutes later and you're on the phone telling my sister that you don't have the money. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA! Thanks. So six months plus we fight about that because yes it was my car and I should be able to pay for my mistakes like wrecking, but how when I thought there was INSURANCE MONEY THERE!!! I could go on with the anger this caused and the interest piled on top but we moved on finally and things got better.
So now, next chapter. I move in an apt in bham with my best friend. So then school and life gets busy to where I have to cut hours at work. You tell me don't worry about it, that you can help me out. Then I tell you that I'm getting worried that I'm really really not going to be able to do this by myself and yet again you tell me not to worry about it. Then I start to get behind and you tell me... O there's money on the way. So everytime I went to you, you assured me it was okay. I would even tell you if I needed to move back in I could. Then five days notice and you're telling me I have to move out that you can't afford it anymore. What the hell??? I really really don't want to sound like a bitch here or a selfish or money hungry child but I would've already made those plans if you would've told me. If you wouldn't have lied to me and told me you would help me, I would have taken care of it. Now I get to tell my roommate "O btw, now I can't live with you anymore, and it's going to be pretty soon." Not really much notice. I don't understand why this is soooo sudden. I don't understand. You just sold 10 acres of land. I really really don't mean to sound like a begging money child but YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD HELP ME!!!!! And now money is supposedly here, and the help you promised isn't seen. Why the hell are you going to tell me you're going to help me and then pull the rug out again in the worst way where it not only puts me out but my best friend. Thank you Mother. Once again, I feel screwed.
current mood:  irate
current music: rapid typing
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| Thursday, August 2nd, 2007
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6:36 pm - HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!
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I sure have been posting a lot.... but today is sooooo worth it!!! I just proved to somebody that you don't fuck with me and someone else on top of that and expect nothing in return : ) They'll probably never talk to me again... but ya know what, they've made me feel like shit for the past few months so now it's their turn!!! I have never tasted revenge, and I'm not even sure if this is 100% revenge, but damn it tastes good!!!
current mood:  naughty
current music: Play Dead, The birthday massacre
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| Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
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2:36 pm - This should be more clear!
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Today, I feel like I've gotten a slap in the face and I actually hope it stays. I think I'm going to actually look at what's in freaking front of me instead of all around where he is, because obviously the only thing you want to do is play, when I think you're actually being serious. Well guess what, I think you just lost me, dude!!! That actually feels great too, haha!!!
current mood:  amused
current music: B.Y.O.B., System of A Down
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| Friday, July 27th, 2007
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8:26 pm - OMFG!!!
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The world as it turns, is crazy!!! I hate being single!!!! There's three guyz that are wanting to date me and I keep turnging their asses down because they either have issues or just not give them a chance because of you!!! And then, you're just going to be fucking crazy!!! Just like one of them.... I want it to be you!!!! I'm so mad!!!! I know this makes nooooo sense!!!
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| Thursday, May 10th, 2007
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8:42 am - I miss you
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and it hurts.
current mood:  sad
current music: Autumn's Monolouge, From Autumn to Ashes
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| Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
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12:27 am - I've gotta say
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| Saturday, September 9th, 2006
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10:05 pm - Much like suffocating
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Hi hi hi.
So I am constantly staying in a great mood, however the shit going on right now, I have no idea why.
I broke up with michael about two weeks ago. Lots of thought put into that one. And yes I'm sure that I can look on this later and say it was a mistake but for right now I still stand firm on my decision. The only thing I hate is we were actually on two separate planes. He had just bought his house and was asking me to make the major decisions on what to do with it because he said I would be living there soon. And he later let me know that there was another investment for a surprise. I know I'm going to miss not only him but also the safety blanket part of the relationship and knowing that I had a pretty good future there if I stayed.
Soooo, anyway my family was all on his side of things which is crazy right, you think since I'm the blood they would have been different. I had to get away from it because they didn't make it any easier, so I was continuously away from home with friends. There were several nights I didn't call and let my sister know where I was at and one night my mom called three times in an hour and a half and i didn't answer because I was napping. I get to the house and my sister tells me that I have forced her to ask me to move out. Ok, awesome I'll just move in with someone else. WRONG!!!!! My mom lets me know that if I don't move back in with her she is no longer going to pay for my health insurance or school. Wow. talk about a damn grip, I can live with paying my own insurance but school hell no. It already sux as it is because I have to put my mother and step-dad on the info for income for loans and so I don't get diddly squat from them, my step-dad doesn't even help pay but I don't want him to because he's only been a part of my life for two years. So yay, I'm 21 and moving back in with mom soon and will be living like a teenager. O, and it's not the house I grew up in anymore. Since my grandmother has gotten pretty bad off my mom and step-dad moved in with her and they are renting our house out, at least they didn't sell it I guess.
My grandmother fell and broke her hip, and my family is so fucking crazy, my mom is the only child of my grandmothers that takes care of her. The other daughter, my aunt didn't come right away because she was meeting her son's girlfriend for the first time on monday night and it was her daughters sixteenth b'day on tuesday and she just had to be there for her to get her license, so she didn't fly down until wednesday, three days after surgery. The brother/my uncle, has done nothing but create chaos and then they want to be all pissy at my mom when my grandmother shows favoritism.
Also, michael's grandfather has carcinoma in both of his lungs. Found out right as we broke up. I hate it number one because it is cancer, the number one thing on my hate list. His grandfather felt like my own to me, even though it was only four years that I knew him he treated me as his own granddaughter and I did the same to him. I don't want him to die yet, or the next time I see him be at his funeral. They're probably not going to do treatment because of various reasons.
and I have pissed off a friend who has decided to act like they are in 8th grade.
I'm trying my hardest to stay upbeat but sometimes all of this just point blank sucks.
current mood:  cold
current music: Silence
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| Monday, August 21st, 2006
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1:52 pm
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| Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
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4:19 pm - Weird
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One of my ex's died this weekend and I found out only one hour after the funeral, kinda depressing.
Aaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnd Jeff State has lost my wonderful transcripts, so I may be out of school for another semester.
On a good note Michael just bought a house.
The ups and downs of life is enough to make ya vomity
current mood:  blah
current music: vh1
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| Friday, June 23rd, 2006
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7:57 am - Axe
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I can always read anything by Edgar Allan Poe and be so great afterwards, The Black Cat is one of the best.
And btw, I know I've already told ya this whitt but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
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| Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
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3:56 am - The Omen opens, 06/06/06
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hehe, all the hype on my b'day was great!!! I have already done one post of it on myspace, www.myspace.com/tippiness if you care to read that. Thanks to everyone that called/messaged/emailed me happy b'day. Man, I would love to go into details but my head is starting to hurt!!! O!!! And Krystle, HAPPY LATE B'DAY!!! I thought of you as I was driking an Island Cooler at O'charley's and two of my friends that work at fultondale's O'Charley's said that they have the godiva chocolate alcohol!!! I was kinda buzzin so I'll ask them again later to make sure. We are taking you out soon!!
current mood:  hot
current music: Everyone's asleep so I got nothing
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| Monday, May 8th, 2006
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8:33 am - All I have to say
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I love my professor that thinks I should be a Literature Major....
She wrote this on my 7 page paper...
Tiffany….This does it. It feels wrong to me to give 100…there is always something to be tweaked…here is would be to build more on the quote explain interpret model. So let’s call this a 96?
I wonder if I say NO!!! to her question if she will give me a 98...
current mood:  thankful
current music: How to save a life, The Fray
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| Monday, May 1st, 2006
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11:05 pm - Piss Poor Day
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Ever so quickly, I had a wreck today, o what fun and how much it sux!!!!
Just for the record, I'm ok.
It's actually been a pretty bad day for everybody, one person is tired of the person that they have been trying to work it out with and a certain something happens to just make it snap, and another finds something out that changes their future life just a bit.
So today is going to go down in my book as a PISS POOR DAY
OOOOOO, did I mention, I have a final at 8AM in the morning, all essay, woot
I am blessed though, my brother-in-law is letting me drive one of his cars, just makes me a little nervous
current mood:  grumpy
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| Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
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1:23 pm - I'm still kickin
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So i'm piddling around before I write my paper that's due tonite at 12:00 a.m. And this is what I did
| Your Theme Song is Fight for Your Right by the Beastie Boys | 
"Your mom busted in and said, "What's that noise?"
Aw, mom you're just jealous - it's the Beastie Boys!"
You love to party hard and cause a little trouble...
And you're too busy getting wasted to move out of your parents' house!
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current mood:  grateful
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8:21 am - "We don't need no education!!!!"
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I swear, another brick in the wall should have been our senior song
Speaking of bricks I feel like I'm in some with school.... UAB is getting too expensive.... I could have already gotten a nursing degree by now if I would have gone to Jeff State or Wallace and be working as an RN already!!!! And that my friend, is the most annoying damn thing of all. I'm so sick of UAB I either want to go to another school to finish up my nursing, and only get an associate's and not a bachelor's like I was wanting or change major's to something like nuclear medicine or SURGICAL PHYSICIAN ASSISTANT and still get a bachelors degree or stay with nursing at UAB, WHICH IS GOING TO BE A HORRIBLE TOOTH PULLING ASS RIPPING EXPERIENCE!!!!
*SIGH* this seems so small, but to me it is HUGE, and I have no idea what to choose.....
current mood:  sleepy
current music: TV
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| Monday, April 3rd, 2006
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9:00 pm - WoW
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I feel like I am forever going to be a patient of the doctor. I was there today, and I will be there again on wed at 8 AM except not my doctor, a special doctor then I will meet again with my doctor. Then along with more doctors I will be seeing for shots like vaccines, tb skin test, a varicella titer and etc., lovely.
I played WoW last night, I now see the addiction.
The reason I'm actually posting this is one specific purpose, that I guess I was trying to avoid in some manner. I just got through watching last nights Grey's Anatomy and was reminded of the half-sister that I really have no clue about. Merideth played the role of my half-sister discovering for the first time the two sisters that her dad abandoned her for. There is no way that my half-sister would ever meet me and nicole in such a way as she did, or even meet at all for that matter. I just feel weird whenever I think about it, I feel horrible for her and horrible that I have thought for one second that my dad wasn't there for me because he seriously wasn't there for her.
current mood: cold
current music: TV
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| Monday, March 27th, 2006
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3:22 pm - Fucking Pissed OFF!!!!
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Yes, this is a hughe heavily venting moment!!!! It is leading me to take tons of shots of whatever is in my fridge!!!!!! I applied for the nursing school to start in the summer. UAB mailed off a packet, I didn't recieve the packet in the mail so I went and got it from their office, only not in time for anything!!!!! My medical forms have to be cleared by this friday, which on average takes 10 days..... FUCK ME!!!! MOther Fucking UAB!!!! Obviously, I do not have 10 days and will not be considered for admission for the summer!!!!! I hate the fuckers!!!! The fuckers include the workers at UAB, the postoffice, the person in the mail vehicle and myself included for not getting the packet earlier!!!!! Damn it all to hell!!!!!!!!
On a good note, I'll have the fucking summer off!!!!
current mood:  livid livid!!!!!
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| Friday, March 24th, 2006
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2:41 pm - Yes Yes Yes!!!!
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First off I got my $1100 bonus yesterday, lovely : ) and......
I turned my two weeks in yesterday!!!! No more wal~mart and I'm going to have weekends off!!!!! Not all of them, more like every other one, and I haven't experienced that at all : ) I have a feeling I am going to like the change : )
Also, I did yoga today and oooo I loved it
current mood:  energetic
current music: Crooked Teeth, Death Cab for Cuite
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| Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
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12:36 pm - Sadly this post is all about the "I"
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I am starving and am about to get some food, as always, I never stop eating.
I love my hair being wet, and going out in public with it wet has never bothered me.
One progression that has happened is I have gained weight, this is bad news and good news all in one!!! I can't wear my favorite pants that were a size 4 anymore (I actually could still wear them but I like being comfortable), however I can finally am able to wear some pants that have always been big on me, they are sized like men pants and are a size 30 so woo-hoo!! Also, some other pants I had are a size 6 and they fit very well now, sorry some pants are gonna have to go I guess....
I took a mid-term yesterday (all essay) that made me feel like taking five shots of jack and coke along with some parot bay afterward. Instead I went to my nutrition class which made my hunger for the day much much worse, so I went home and pigged out and watched my latest obsession... Grey's Anatomy!!!! haha, I made jamie and toni watch an episode yesterday when they came over.
I really don't want to go to work today. My sister wants me to call in so I can go work out with her, well not really work out, just go to a dance class.
Time for food now...
current mood:  lazy
current music: nothing
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| Saturday, February 18th, 2006
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1:20 am - Why am i still sritint??
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haha, this split keyboard messes me up sometimes.
Well, I am half-way done with a paper I have due on tuesday. I feel much much better : ) Tomorrow, well today I actually, I am off of work!!!!! I love having saturdays off, however they do not come often : ( Plans for later today would be, layla's birthday party at tim and lily's and then much hanging out at scott and angela's which i have not seen in over 9 months since they have a baby now, and i never saw ang when she was pregnant, I feel so horrible. So tomorrow is going to be an awesome off day, seeing two awesome cute babies!!!!! Maybe I'll do taxes too... who knows, well I just wanted to chill down a bit before sleepy time and now it is here. so ta~ta
P.S. does this make any since, I think now that I am away from paper writing, I want to break all the rules of english!!!!
current mood: sleepy
current music: tv
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